I surrender… again

I’m giving you my heart
And all that is within,
I lay it all down for the sake of you My King
I’m giving You my dreams,
I’m laying down my rights,
I’m giving up my pride for the promise of new life.

I surrender all to you.
And I surrender all to you.

I’m singing you this song
I’m waiting at the cross
All the world holds dear, I count it all as loss
For the sake of knowing you,
The glory of Your name,
To know the lasting joy,
Even sharing in Your pain

“Surrender” – Vineyard Music

I think that this should be my theme song for the time being. Time and time again recently, I’ve been confronted with my sin, and all its ugliness: my pride, selfishness, independence, self-centeredness, impatience, materialism, bitterness… I think some of it may be related to this transition that I’m facing, and how my role is changing, but regardless of why it’s coming up, it’s there. The ugly monsters that they are, and it’s a struggle.

Today, in particular, I was challenged with what I believe is just the beginning of “laying down my rights.” What my rights in North America were, will not necessarily be the same as my rights in Thailand, or Asia in general. And that’s hard to let go of – my rights are hard to let go of… I pray that God would help me with this. I pray for more humility and selflessness – to be more like Christ.

“So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.” – Philippians 2:1-11 (ESV)

What an example!

2 thoughts on “I surrender… again

  1. What an awesome place to be, Beth! I don’t know why the places that feel the most painful are also the most transformative, but trust that he is changing you to diamond purity.Laying down our rights is one of the hardest struggles. My struggle is often with the right to be treated like a person instead of an object within our community. Part of me believes that I need to 1) reinforce healthy views of women; and 2) keep myself safe. But, I struggle with whether “safety” is really a <><>gospel<><> priority or just a Western value.


  2. Hey Beth. That is an awesome song isn’t it. I hope and pray that God helps you to deny yourself so that he may have all the glory. John Piper is right when he says God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him. It is amazing that only in self-denial can we find real joy and peace. It’s hard to get your head round but it’s something we need to get our heads round.amazing passage too!press on!Gareth


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