The last month and a half I’ve been transitioning. It’s an on-going process – a life-long process I guess, although I think there are seasons in one’s life in which one experiences more transition, more change, more of a need to be flexible and go with the flow. And with that, even more of a need to rely on the One who placed the stars in the sky, who calls them out by name and who is the same yesterday, today and forever.
Last month I moved from my house in Sop Soi, where I lived for three years. This month I’ve been in Chiang Mai attending and participating in various retreats, conferences and seminars. Now I am in Bangkok – for a trip to Immigration to renew my visa and get a re-entry permit (done and done!) as well as to get in a few days of rest and see a couple of friends from my Lopburi days.
Early on Wednesday morning, I get on a plane and head back to North America: Turner Valley, Alberta for a week, then London, Ontario. I’m heading “home” for 9 months for Home Assignment with my missions organisation but yet feeling like I’m leaving my home here in order to go “home.” It’s all very confusing and again it’s a part of the transition. Re-entry looms ahead of me although I know it too is normal and a part of the process. More importantly, I know that ultimately my home is in heaven and that no matter where I am, I can always take refuge in my Lord.
I’m thankful that I’ll be returning to Thailand, God willing, in 9 months. It’s made saying my goodbyes that much easier – but it’s still hard. I won’t be returning to live in Sop Soi, nor Mae Hong Son but will be moving to Chiang Mai. I’ll be continuing ministry with the Thai-yai but also taking on a new role in helping co-lead the Intern Program. More transitions – good changes but changes nonetheless.
Location, role/job, relationships… all in transition.
“Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose trust is the LORD.
He is like a tree planted by water,
that sends out its roots by the stream,
and does not fear when heat comes,
for its leaves remain green,
and is not anxious in the year of drought,
for it does not cease to bear fruit.”
– Jeremiah 17:7-8 (ESV)
I feel like I should add that I truly am excited to be going back to Canada for 9 months – to reconnect with family, friends, my supporting churches and individual supporters. To share about what I’ve been doing and hopefully mobilise others to come and join me in this Kingdom work and to be praying for the Thai-yai. To be available to be used by God however He wants. And to just enjoy Canada – what a great and beautiful nation to be from! But right now, in this moment, in this guest house in Bangkok, this is where my heart is at. I’m processing. Transitioning. Thinking. Praying. In some ways grieving. In many ways eager and giddy for Canada. So… yeah. This is where I’m at.